Your 17 million acres of green imperfection swallowed my complacency whole. For seven days in June, it was just you and me — anyone else on our 25-passenger boat was there just as a floating passerby in their own silent catharses.
For days we watched your inhabitant whales’ blows, fins and tales play with the surface of your silky smooth water.
It was during the choppier times that we saw them for the first time truly dance, breaching in full-hearted devotion to the symphony of waves and wind that constitutes you.
Tree by tree, breath by breath, our world’s largest temperate rainforest (intact), Tongass, you’re the biggest love we have left.
I realize there’s a whole system of life here within me.
A moment with my own self is actually an amazing thing. It’s incredible. A blessing. A miracle.
Anytime I may feel alone, I remember this epiphany I had, and immediately, I no longer feel alone. I just feel grateful to have this moment with myself, in this life.
If you think about the impermanence of life, and change, and all the good, and the challenges, and all the in-between most likely coming your way, you look at this aloneness as something to be cherished.
And as you go through this process, know this mold is not who you are.
Stop letting your mind take it to the level of identifying with it. Believe in yourself, that you’re different now. The change is being made.
Maybe before anyone else believes in you, maybe before you’re even sure yourself.
That’s a leap of faith. And that’s what you do in this situation. You take a leap of faith that you can change.
Behave differently in pieces, before your whole system is on board. Eventually, it all will follow.
That’s the purpose of life for me, in this moment. It may change.
That is, if there is any purpose to life - any outward thing you should find yourself doing to achieve some greater connection to your existence - other than to just enjoy it.
But I have to say, I believe there is.
For those that this post does not resonate with, maybe the purpose of your life is to find your own purpose.
Blessings as you do!
We all need way more self-love - for ourselves and our experiences of being a human on this planet.
We sit there and just expect so much of ourselves, so much of others.
We decide who they should be, and they decide who we should be. It’s a board game in a circular path. None of this gets us to each other.
Instead, what we need to do is simply feel the day.
Loosen the expectations of ourselves, of our days, and of each other.
Unwrap the need to control. Open up the grip. Be gentle with ourselves, gentle with each other.